Child Of Nuin

{January 29, 2015}   Dreaming of Tattoos

So, here’s the thing.

I am trying to get into Post Grad study at the moment. To become a teacher. Someone that young people are going to look up to and see every day while they learn about the world. Someone who has to be professional and a good role model.

As a goth, I’m already off to a dodgy start.

So when I know that being a teacher, especially within Japan, is not the right profession to have tattoos why is it that my brain still makes me want them?

To put this into context, I had a rather strong dream last night where I was in possession of a half sleeve tattoo on my right arm, with two unrelated tattoos on my forearm. To say that I was surprised is an understatement.

I was ecstatic.

Which of course means that I now have the unshakable yearning to get another tattoo. Which is not a good idea for many reasons, least of which the ones that I have listed already. For those who don’t know, I already have a tattoo.

My Tattoo 01

This alone cost me $180AUD. Tattoos are expensive as hell. Considering how much my only tattoo cost even though it’s only about 8.5x7cm, I can only cringe at the thought of how much one would have to cough up in order to pay for a half sleeve like the one in my dream. Or what organs one would have to sell.

In any case, I never realised how much a dream could affect your mentality so much. I have always been of the opinion that my tattoos would have a special meaning to me. But after that dream I am in two minds about it. I would never consider something like a full sleeve to have enough special meaning to me personally, but I still feel like I was completely happy with the artwork that covered my arm. Oh the indecision. At the moment I am so ready to hit up my artist for a whole beautiful, colourful sleeve.

Buuuut, I still have to pay rent and power, so for now the dream will have to take a back seat to rationality. Maybe one day I’ll be in a position to get it, but not this year.

– Reillyn is AFK –


{September 17, 2013}   Miss America 2014: Really Internet?!

Before I start this blog off, I would just like to extend my warmest congratulations to miss Nina Davuluri for winning Miss America 2014. A competition well won by a beautiful American.

However, there is the small issue of social media and ignorance in general that I would like to address, If you’re lazy and don’t want to read my gigantic post of rambling rage, this is basically my point:

Your ignorance is hurting my brain, get off the internet.

So, Miss Davuluri (aka, Miss New York) won the Miss America pageant this year. Fantastic. For a bit of background, Miss Davuluri is an Indian-America woman from Syracuse, New York. She is an aspiring doctor, and is planning on using her $50,000 prize from the pageant to further her studies. She is an absolutely beautiful woman who performed a lovely bollywood-classical fusion dance during the competition.

She is also the first Indian woman to be Miss New York, and the first Indian woman to win Miss America. The whole of America should be celebrating her victory, as well as seeing this as a victory for multiculturalism and equality.

But no… quite a few people decided that they would be prejudice asshats and blurt out their out-dated bigotry on their chosen social media websites. I have chosen just a few of the stupidest outbursts to share, and I have no qualms about leaving their usernames in. This is the price for prejudice and racism.

Miss America right now, or miss Al Qaeda?

– @SHANN__Wow

Nice slap in the face to the people of 9-11 how pathetic

– @wnfraser

Miss America is a terrorist. Whatever. That’s fine.

– @_AudreyAnn

And the winner of the “I want to hunt you down and stab you in the face, you racist prick” award goes to @bsufy, who said:

A fucking god damn terrorist 9-11 bitch won MISS AMERICA WTF!! Gotta be Merican to win miss Merica #LoveItOrLeaveIt

Well done sir, you win a life times worth of hate and spam. I hope that one day you will become part of a minority, and then have no one show you any tolerance or mercy. It’s everything you deserve. And that goes for everyone that wrote ignorant, bigoted, intolerant crap and spammed both my Facebook and my Twitter with them.

Just to point something out that these people obviously do not understand: Miss Davuluri is an Indian-American. As in she was born in America and is not a Muslim. The attacks of 9-11 were carried out by an extremist Islamist organization, with the emphasis on extremists. An organization based in the middle-east, not India. Not only is it ridiculous to say that anyone is a terrorist or a member of Al-Qaeda simply for their ethnicity, or religious affiliation, those who claim that crowning an Indian-American woman as Miss America is “a slap in the face for the people of 9-11” is beyond absurd.

I don’t see anyone saying that eating in Little India is a slap in the face to the people of 9-11. Or having an Indian rug in the house. Or watching a Bollywood movie. Bride and Prejudice was a hit for a reason.

Check yourself.

Miss Davuluri is a talented young woman who has every right to be up on that stage wearing that crown as the rest of the contestants. In fact the looks on the other contestants faces when Miss Davuluri was crowned showed nothing but joy for her success. If the women who have the most reason to hate Miss Davuluri are happy for her, what gives you the right to judge her on her ethnic heritage?

I am infuriated by this, and I’m not even American. I’m not a pageant person. I don’t care what happens in America the majority of the time. And sometimes I wonder why I don’t have much patience for people in general, but as soon as shit like this happens I remember vividly.

I take comfort only in the people who are out there also writing blogs, making videos and writing scathing responses to this ignorance and prejudice. Those who support Miss Davuluri far outnumber those who oppose her, but the mass of opposition is still ridiculous, and something that needs to be addressed.

That’s it, I am out of here. I cannot deal with this any longer. I would rather be doing homework.

– Reillyn is AFK –

{September 4, 2013}   Oh my WordPress…

Well would you look at that, I’ve neglected by blog… again…

Sorry about that.

I’ve been studying rather hard (*snort*) for uni this semester, and almost forgot that I had a blog all together. Again, my bad. But I have been getting quite a bit done this semester. Including helping found a University Society. We are the Pagan and Esoteric Society, fondly knows around as the P&E Society.

We’re thinking about changing it to PAGES. I like it. It’s got a ring to it.

In any case, that is basically what I wanted to say. Three of the members of PAGES (see, doesn’t it just read so much better) are collaborating our blogs for the purpose of getting together a bit of a shared-blogisphere thing for the society. Which means I may be updating this thing a lot more.


Anyway, apart from that, here’s a basic update in dot-point form:
– I’ve become Marketer for the Tasmanian Anime and Manga Society
– I’ve become President for the Pagan and Esoteric Society
– I’ve settled in to my place quite well
– I have a blender

Yup, I think that’s everything important.

Also, as I type this I am in Melbourne after having seen King Kong the Musical in the Regent Theatre last night. If you are in the general vicinity (and by that I mean anywhere in Australia, because come on) you should definitely head out to see it. The hydraulic work and the skill of the puppeteers alone is worth it. I wasn’t a fan of the musical score, but the singing was phenomenal.

Anyway, I’m done. See you guys next time.

– Reillyn is AFK –

{May 22, 2013}   A New Space

Well this last week has been quite hectic. I’ve really been letting my psychology study slip in order to work on my more tolerable courses. But that’s not what I wanted to really share.

I’m moving out of my aunts house, which is both really exciting and at the same time, rather terrifying. Basically my aunt and her husband are downsizing their house, since all their children are all grown up and living their own lives. They don’t need to have such a big house anymore, so they wont… and I won’t have a place to stay with them.

Personally, I think they should just lease their house as a sharehouse to university students or something.

Anyway, this means that I have to move out and I have found my new abode for the next three semesters. A little downstairs granny flat about 10 minutes walk from my university.


Awesome shelving. Probably going to be my filming backdrop.


Plenty of space and an ensuite.


External access only. Hells yeah.

I am so excited you guys, you have no idea. I’m only going to be there for about 4 months to begin with, since I can’t afford to be there over the summer break, but I’m hoping to be there for at least 9 months next year. It’s going to be an amazing experience. I have so many plans for the new place, it’s unreal. I’m hoping to start filming again once all my exams and stuff are over and I’m moved in, since I’ll have a brand new space. I’ll probably be filming vlogs from my iPad because, while I love my camera to death, it is not great for doing self vlogs, since to start filming you need to touch the screen in a particular way… it gets frustrating.

Any whore, I am hoping to do an update video detailing some more of the details of the move, and I’m hoping to do a video during the actual moving process. It would be awesome to have that kind of record. I’ll have to wipe my camera card to get all the footage on it.

Anyway, that’s all I wanted to say. Look out for a quick update video, which I’m hoping to film either tonight or tomorrow night.

– Reillyn is AFK –

{May 13, 2013}   Hair for Cancer

I’ve been thinking for a while about just cutting off all of my hair. Rolling over of a night and almost suffocating on hair is not something I enjoy, but it’s been happening an awful lot lately. But I was debating with myself for months as to whether I would start missing my long hair, how nice my curls were when freshly washed, all the things that made me doubt whether or not it would ever happen.

And then someone asked me a question that changed my mind completely.

“Why don’t you send it to charity?”

After a lot of research on different charities based in Australia and all over the world, I finally found two organizations that would accept non-virgin hair. A lot of organizations wont take hair that has been previously dyed because the hair has to be dyed a uniform color when the wig is being manufactured. Pre-dyed hair doesn’t hold the dye as well, so they wont accept it. Unfortunately all the Australian organizations fall under that kind of category, so I eventually had to decide between Locks of Love and Zichron Menachem.

A lot of websites that I looked at were rather anti-Locks of Love for multiple reasons, and after a while I decided to send my hair to ZM. Mostly I did it because Locks of Love don’t give their wigs to children with cancer unless they are going to go through long term chemotherapy treatment, and the applications for the wigs were ridiculously complex.

For a little back-story for the reason I wanted so much to send my hair off the somewhere that looks after kids with cancer. About 5 years ago my father passed away of Multiple Myeloma, which is a type of Leukemia. I tried doing Relay For Life, and I’ve never had the guts to do Shave For A Cure. I give what I can to the various organizations that deal with cancer, but being a university student I don’t really have a lot of extra money to spread around. So this is really one of the only things that I could do for those suffering.

So, I booked in and, low and behold, all of my hair came off


And God do I feel like a champion. It was more than a little amazing for feel so light and so different. And shoving all that hair into a post box, knowing that it was going to someone who needs it, was just the <strong>best</strong> feeling ever. I’m so glad that I did it. I love it and I feel in my very soul that my father would be proud of me.

So here I am, about three weeks later, feeling on top of the world every time I look in the mirror. I would encourage anyone thinking about doing something for cancer, or for any charity that you feel strongly for to just do it. Don’t think about it too much. Just go and do it. You’ll feel so much better for it.

– Reillyn is AFK –

So this happened.

I’ve been so excited about this, that by time it came around I was more than a little nervous to do it. Especially since, you know, it’s bellydancing for a friggin music video. I think I was entitled to freak out a little bit. Especially since, even though I do not have the body for it, I was dancing in a straight skirt and a decorated bra. Yup. Don’t think about it too hard, it’s not a nice visual.

I have discovered from this that I would much rather be behind the camera when this kind of thing is going down. Not when there’s acting or cosplaying to be done, but when I’m not wearing much I very much enjoy being either behind the camera or right at the back of the dancing pack. Which, thankfully, I was.

Anyway, the filming went really well, and I hope that post is going well too. It was a bit surreal, and at the same time very sobering to find out first hand exactly what goes in to filming things. I mean, I’ve been a part of college-level film projects before, but this was a lot different. Really, it gave me a good insight into the workings of filming music videos, which will be really useful when I finally get enough people to actually film the so fucking many cosplay music videos that I’ve been planning and directing in my head.

But back on topic, the filming went really well, I think Neha and the rest were really happy with it, and it was fun getting ready and dancing. So it wasn’t so bad. It only felt like it because I decided it was a good idea to watch some of the footage, which someone with confidence issues should never do, and then it took me a while to get back into it and start having fun again.

So, lesson of today is: if you don’t have very high self esteem, and you’re involved in the filming of a music video, don’t watch the footage until it’s too late to do anything about it. Just saying,

– Reillyn is AFK –

{April 3, 2013}   Anime Island Conventon, 2013

Well this review has been a while in the making. I did mean to get onto it before, but you know, university and all that jazz.

So, as you may know, Tasmania’s Anime Island Convention was on the 16th and 17th of March. It was a pretty good con as far as small town conventions go. I’ve noticed just by surfing the Manifest website that it seems to borrow some (read: lots of) events from that convention. But that didn’t make it any less awesome.

Saturday was pretty great for Fruits Fashion. I ended up cosplaying on the first day, but I have realized that going as Marauder Era Remus Lupin to a small town convention that is probably not full of Harry Potter nerds probably isn’t a good idea. I did get complimented on my scar makeup by someone though, so I guess it’s not a completely wasted effort.

Test makeup... I somehow lost my "on-the-day" photo.

Test makeup… I somehow lost my “on-the-day” photo.

The whole “theme” this year was Steampunk, pretty much, which is awesome. So there were quite a few steampunk-inspired outfits in the Fruits Fashion Competition. And for the first time that I’ve been there, there were some guys decked out in frocks and jewelry. I thought that is was pretty awesome, to be honest. Some of the outfits were just out of this world in detail, and some were… well… not really hard worked on, to say the least. But the whole idea is to have fun, and people definitely did that.

Captain Syn, showing us how it's done.

Captain Syn, showing us how it’s done.

There were some pretty great events, including Cosplay Mystery Date. I managed to get a place on the ‘contestant’ side of one of them. I was up against Aerith and… some person from Homestuck I think. Needless to say, I didn’t win that, but it turns out that the “bachelor” was someone that I follow on DeviantArt. Small world.

Sunday was the day for cosplaying, and in true me-fashion, I decided not to torture my body anymore and went in “normal” clothes. I say normal in that they weren’t cosplay, but they weren’t every day clothes either. Anyway, enough on that. There were some really awesome cosplays, including a Kingdom Hearts group, some Ouran Hosts and a rather irate Final Fantasy VII Sid. There were some people cosplaying from anime, manga and games that I’ve never heard of before, some old favorites and some amazing cosplay feats (you know, massive arse wings, that kind thing). It was a great turn out, and the people who won really did deserve it. Including HAPPYHAHA, the same DeviantArtist that I mentioned before as being my ‘bachelor’.

First time cosplayers. Her hair... just... whut?!

First time cosplayers. Her hair… just… whut?!

Oh my god the wings...

Oh my god the wings…

HAPPYHAHA, winner of the Best Constructed.

HAPPYHAHA, winner of the Best Constructed

Unfortunately, I couldn’t stay late on either day since I had work both nights, but I managed to get in to the auction on the last day (though I missed Saturday’s MA15+ auction). And since sellers in the Traders Hall don’t like packing up all their stuff again, they tend to put everything on sale in the last couple of hours. So many bargains. I bought quite a few Avengers inspired things. I regret nothing.


Subtle nerdiness…


I’m not even trying anymore


Slightly less subtle…

I didn’t manage to get a photo of me with the Captain America that was walking around though. That was a bit disappointing.

Overall AI-Con, while not being the greatest con, was a delight to go to. I love getting back together with people and having fun. Conventions are always great places to catch up with people who have the same interests as you do.

And now that it’s over, I’ve actually joined the Tasmanian Anime and Manga Society at my university, so I’m getting to know a lot of amazing people who have so much to offer and share. I’m so lucky to be a part of such a fantastic community.

– Reillyn is AFK –

Wow, it has been so friggin long since I actually updated this thing. Not that I haven’t been writing or anything, it’s just that between photos going missing and my devices messing up and losing some of the entries that I was working on, I really haven’t got a really well documented months worth of posts to upload. And since I have at least a months worth of my life missing I don’t think it’s a good idea to keep going with my 365 blog posts. Really, instead of making me more organized with my life, it was stressing me out that I had to remember to take a photo and think of something to write about every single day without fail. I think it would just have been easier to do a photo album. I don’t know if I will be able to do the 5 year diary that my mother is planning on doing, but at least I could try that without feeling that I have to entertain as well as document.

So what is news in the world of me? Since New Year I have met some of the most amazing people, and made so many new friends that I am going to be really happy to keep in my life from now on. I miss some of them already, if I’m being honest. Annabelle and Manami are both off doing more work, and I miss meeting up at Hudson’s and talking over coffee, or having a drink after dinner and watching YouTube videos together. I’m looking forward to seeing Annabelle in August when we both go to Manifest together.

Yes! I am definitely going to Manifest in Melbourne in August (16th – 18th). I’m not entirely sure what I’m going to be cosplaying over the three days, but I might be able to convince the people I’m going with to be Marauders with me, like I was at AI-Con this year. But that… that’s a story for a whole other blog post. So many things need to be said about AI-Con.

On a slightly related note, the university Anime and Manga Society has started hosting screenings, and I have made some really neat friends from it. It’s been a really fantastic experience. Especially since the woman who helps organize and run the screenings is part of a pagan gathering that meets every Tuesday at lunch time, which is one of my one-class days. I’m really looking forward to being a part of a pagan community again, as well as a Japan-loving community. Cosplaying is so much more fun when you do it with friends.

In any case, I guess what I really wanted to get at was that life has been pretty good, and that I will be updating a bit more frequently, but I will not be continuing the 365 blog posts that I started at the beginning of this year. Life is way too short, and way too full of assignments, to worry about writing something that might not even entertain anyone every day.

I’ll have a post up in a few days about AI-Con, the highlights and the lowlights. I will also have a post up summarizing everything that is in the surviving daily posts I managed to save over the last month. It will have lots of photos, so look out for it.

– Reillyn is AFK –

I don't think rice is going to fix this.

I don’t think rice is going to fix this.

Well, shit. The first real day of my detox and things have already gone pear shaped. I was trying to document my week of detox via film, but apparently my mini-tripod hates me and fell over. And dunked the top of my camera into the almost-completed shake mixture. I panicked so hard and just cried over it for a good 15 minutes, all the while getting my boyfriend on the phone to ask what to do, doing it, and cleaning everything up. I really hope that the rice is going to fix it, but I have a bad feeling that it’s not. And if that’s the case, then I’m going to have to buy a new camera… even though this one was a present from my mum.

Other than that, the day went pretty good. Leaving out the Lecithin was a really good idea. As was straining the shake before I drank it. Though that may have taken away some of the vital components, so I’m going to try it without straining it tomorrow. I had to give my work mate a lift to pick up her car from where she parked it yesterday, since she was too drunk to pick it up herself last night, but apart from that all I did was some housework, since the family is coming up tomorrow, and I’m getting kicked out of my room to make room for them. The getting kicked out I don’t mind so much (well, I do, but I put up with it), but the fact that my cousin has three young children who are going to be sleeping in the room that I classify as my sacred space, worries me a little. It worries me every time, because every time I think that they’re going to break something, or pick up something sharp from my altar, or accidentally swallow one of my tumbled stones. And now, with the addition of my ancestral shrine, I am twice as worried. There are things that I have placed on there that I do not want them to touch, but really shouldn’t have to move just because we’re having family over.

I mean, they treat our house like their shack. I really don’t have any expectations that there are going to be too many boundaries. I guess we’ll see what happens when the time comes.

On a different note, my dog has some kind of throat sickness. We have to feed her cough syrup three times a day. Even with a syringe, she doesn’t make it easy for us. That’s something I am not looking forward to doing over the next couple of days.

– Reillyn is AFK –

Work mates are always fun.

Work mates are always fun.

I am so happy right now you guys. Not only did I have an amazing day, but my boyfriend got his license this morning. I let him drive my car this morning, which was scary, but I’m so proud of him.

Anyway, work brunch was great. I got there a little bit late since I had to be there for the test, and I had to pick up the mugs that we had made for our two bosses, but it was fun. The staff had decided to make mugs with the things we heard the most over the summer printed on the back of them, so our floor manager got “Steady but civilized”, since that’s what she usually says to the customers when they ask how the day as been, and our pasta chef got “Tell them to f@#! off” on his. Yes, that is what we heard most this summer. Especially when someone ordered soup on a 40 degree day. And sometimes we really wanted to carry out his orders, but we never did. Anyway, I put in the order for the mugs yesterday morning while I was in town, and picked them up this morning. They looked terrific. I forgot to take a photo of them, so I can’t show you guys, but they were just brilliant quality.

After all that happened today, the icing on the cake was having one of my work mates up to mine, when she was completely shit-faced. It was absolutely hilarious.

On the down side, this detox shake thing tastes like crap. Not even joking. It smells even worse. I am going to try it tomorrow without the lecithin and see if that helps at all. I sincerely hope that it does.

– Reillyn is AFK –

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